9.9 Blocks & Wait
So. September has been a long month, I think for all of us.
a LOT happened in just one month so forgive me for being so incredibly long winded.
The first week was insane starting off with a Monday and Friday class suspension. There was supposed to be an event that was meant to happen last August 29th, was moved due to a suspension, rescheduled to September 1st which was also suspended. A very hectic of days. It was exacerbated by the fact that my club was supposed to make a backdrop for said event but since it was moved we didn't have sufficient time to even imagine that it was finished, so we crammed it on the morning of (started work at 6:30 for an 8:30 event)
I experienced slight burn out from studying after exams which made easing into September harder than ever more specifically because I swear to it, this month is my worst every year. I fall to my worst at this time and I often avoid it like the plague if i can. I dislike planning this for September because of it, but I did manage to sneak in a cheeky date on the 20th which brought me back my sanity thankfully.
And then came the second week. It started okay, actually -- for me, anyway. On the 9th I had try outs for my sports fest which was fun. I'm co-captain for track so I was able to run (which is my favourite thing to do) and help some juniors run more efficiently. But of course, all things must come to an end. Mid-week news of Charlie Kirk's death was insane. Particularly since right before it happened I was just talking about how crazy his talking points are and how illogical some of his debates seem. Very mixed reactions from people. Now I don't think anyone should be put to death for what they believe. If we apply that logic everything else is free game and we cannot fall to our own dislikes. But it is a point he died for what he advocated for, it's like people who wanted wild animals as pets but then died because of said wild animals. Charlie Kirk was someone I disliked for purporting harmful things and ideas, I disagree with him being heralded as a hero, I disagree with killing people because of their opinions. That is my opinion.
At the same time in the same week (literally) the Nepal protests and riots happened. Which coincides (slightly) with the Indonesian protests and riots, which started on the 25th of August. Nepal protested against the government's corruption, not just the social media ban. The ban was more of like a catalyst, the thing that broke the camel's back. Because of course, right before the ban social media boomed with criticisms of Nepalese nepo-babies living much better than the rest of Nepalese society with very great disparity between them and the greater public. And in general the rampant corruption happening, which was the same with Indonesia's protests and riots. All against corruption. Which is the same here in the Philippines. I'm glad that people, especially in SEA, are waking up to government corruption and not taking it. It's disappointing that I am fighting for the same things my parents were fighting for. I attended the rally on the 21st against corruption with my family members. Most of them were alive during the EDSA revolution. It's the same circus, the same clowns.
On the third week school was switched from onsite to online due to an ongoing transport strike that was a form of protest against corruption because of the cuts there were to transport because of corruption.
It's currently the end of the 4th week, I'm writing this on Thursday the 25th. Monday, Tuesday, and Tomorrow are suspended due to different typhoons (mon & tues because of Nando, fri because of Obong). I suppose this re-sparked my fears in the climate and environment, my fear always lingers but gets worse during typhoon season because of how bad it gets. I'm lucky enough in life to not be affected greatly by typhoons, in the sense that my house is nice enough to not be flooded. My heart goes out to all those affected. I wish, I wish there is something to be done to minimise flooding. But again, corruption. I forgot to mention earlier that the Philippines protests happened because they found discrepancies in the flood control projects of the country. Often they were substandard, or not even completed-- all the while being marked as completed with billions of pesos missing and clearly not used for the right causes or reasons, back into the pockets of billionaire politicians. It's right disgusting if you ask me.
On the side of climate however I find myself more hopeful than last year. Not pointlessly optimistic, but I see more toward the "how can we change what we do to right a wrong?" instead of "we're all going to die" mentality I held. I suppose because I stopped using TikTok, X, and other socials besides Instagram and Tumblr in November of last year which effectively stopped all the negative echo chambers. Truly short form content does NOT allow engagement of anything worthy of your time. I'll make another post about how much losing social medias helped me, maybe it'll help you if you're on the fence! Of course everyone's circumstances are different, but I'll tell you mine incase we are the same.
Anywho I end this off saying that I'm doing well personally. I'm picking it up with my academics again, especially after the very long online / asynchronous break I had from having to be onsite all the time healed my energy a little bit. Though I hate online because I don't learn anything -- synchronously anyway. I find it harder to have to sit down for an hour at home to learn this one subject for this specific time instead of being sporadic with my times and breaks that fit my productive times and down times. But whatever, I'm doing well! I've had a little time to draw because at least I studied much of everything in advance for at least a week so I don't have to stuff studying into a work week night or weekend. Very fun! I'm glad this month is over, goodness me, what a nightmare.
As a bit of a brighter look on the month I find myself getting closer with my friends which is good! I tend to distance myself a bit though I am touchy it's awkward expressing myself to others because I'm very anti-mainstream interests (for my area / country) which gets difficult at times to connect with others. However I'm finding that if I just talk long enough and be passionate about what I like, people will connect anyway :). Today I had a comic strip competition for ecology month that I competed in with my friend. We worked in perfect tandem it was quite literally insane that we finished within two hours i could NOT believe it.
Well. I hope to see you all very soon. As always, hopes be many and woes be few; fortunes be abundant to you and your crew.
P.S: I really need to remember to stop doing post scripts but also i want to mention that I have slowly become obsessed with Into the Woods and all its metaphors and symbolisms. Criminally understood musical... Putting it up there with Jesus Christ Superstar and Cabaret for my favourite musicals ever in the world. :). INFACT my first ever fan art since my FNAF obsession when I was 9 will be Into the Woods. This is truly a moment in history, if you know me I NEVER make fan art. So.