Is this thing on?
Huzzah once more to you, my friends!
I treat this place like my diary which arguably is pretty bad as there is now written proof of my thoughts out in the wild, but honestly? I don't really mind. Most of what I've talked about were my fears, happenings, and ideas... Nothing too revealing. For whatever reason it is, I feel waaaay more comfortable writing on here than in an actual private diary.
So... June, huh? This week was my first week back at school in a completely new department (Senior High School) and boy howdy, was that rough. The adjustments were crazy, plus they're going all big brother on us and disallowed keychains on bags. I don't even get it... that is my last form of self expression, can I please just have that? I can't put nothing on my face, can't have cool hair, can't have wrist accessories, can't have non-simple hair accessories, my bag with all it's pins and keychains is the last stand I have for individuality. I get forming a community, but at some point stripping a person's sense of uniqueness does bad things to the brain!
On a lighter note, all my friends are in my class! I'm vibing with my section, I think we'll be alright. It's full of HUMMS and Arts students, so I imagine the debates and research topics will go wild. The energy has been pretty high considering we have a lot of introverts, ambiverts? People who usually keep to their own circle or to themselves, though I do prefer that as an extrovert! I love me some introverts to adopt. I do think my energy has deffo rubbed off on my friends, they're more outgoing than when I first met them! That's a good thing, at least.
Mental real estate hasn't been getting much better than when I did my last blog post. Generally, I've just been able to get by because there are so many things preoccupying me now, but have you ever gotten that feeling of being sooooooo disconnected from everything? It's a bit like that sometimes. Most of this is normal, I hope, probably a lot of teenage angst finally up to hit me in the back after years of bliss and happiness. Though, only time can tell. I very desperately need to get back on my regular operating mode because next week's the start of my actual, regular classes... which means I'll be barraged by school, work, everything. To deal with that, I'll first have to be situated, which hopefully means normalcy.
It's hard to ask for help. It's better to shout my stuff out in the void. Maybe, I would've by now, many people know I'm pretty open about this stuff but it's... eh. I always tell others they can just reach out whenever but it is so hard to do it yourself. I don't even think I have anyone on that level of close to tell them my stuff, though y'know... everyone is that level of close to me already. I don't mind hearing their struggles. I mind if they hear my struggles, y'know?
Hopes be many and woes be few; fortunes be abundant to you and your crew.